April Stress…Aren’t We All Stressed?

Jillian here. Happy?!? April. I’m sure we’re all worried about our loved ones and trying to keep ourselves safe and healthy. I know a lot of people are tired of being on lock down, but sadly, that isn’t me. I wish I could be home, but my profession is considered essential. If anything, my life is more hectic now than it was before- and add in the worries about elderly parents and friends- I’ve found myself in panic mode more than once. I have to  make an effort to breathe slow and settle down. I have a bad worry habit and it’s hard to let go and let God. I hate being a control freak, but I am and when things are out of my ability to control, I fret and sometimes say things I shouldn’t. Perhaps we all do that.

I feel tired all the way to my bones.  Not sick, but just weary.

We lost my dad’s younger brother (76) in mid-March- he had COPD and was cleaning his house with bleach and was found unresponsive in his bathroom and passed away four hours later. He will be very missed. My family is super close and we have a hole now where he was. My dad and he talked all the time and it’s been hard on Dad.

A dear friend lost her mother (78) – who I adored- she was a sweet, sweet lady full of love and laughter- she also had COPD. Neither have been counted as Co-vid deaths, but it’s odd that they both had respiratory issues and passed away in March- no autopsies for either. No funerals. My cousins got to see their dad but my friend didn’t get to see her mom. It’s incredibly sad.

Three out of the four people who work at my office live at my house so we’re def. isolating and staying away from others. We aren’t seeing any live appointments and documents are being left outside for us to bring in. The new normal?  Hopefully, not forever.

Now that I’ve depressed everyone, Here’s a picture of my sweet grandson, Benjamin, to make you smile. He is my heart.

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12 responses to “April Stress…Aren’t We All Stressed?

  1. Oh, Jillian, I’m sorry for your loss. I, too, lost my uncle in the last couple weeks (to cancer, not COVID-19). The gregarious one everybody loved. Sigh. And these are trying times, so now, more than ever, we have to do more of what feeds our soul. For me, that’s been the painting, and reading, and watching movies, and not writing. I wish you weren’t so busy so you could do more creative stuff. Though, maybe being busy is a good thing? Remember, most of all, that this too shall pass. I’m glad you’re breathing through it. Hang in there. And if you ever want to talk, reach out.
    And what an awesome little boy. Benjamin is soooooo stinkin’ cute! I love his eyes and his smile. Wow.

    • I’m sorry to hear about your uncle as well. We are living in sad times right now for sure. I don’t feel like being creative or much of anything. I am also watching movies and have been watching some WWII stuff, but I decided to stop that as the other night, I watched one where resistance fighters were executed and that did not make my mood elevate. 🙂 I think I need to watch Jumping jack Flash. 🙂
      Thanks re: Benji. he’s adorable. I’m glad I got to see him at the beginning of March.

  2. Living in a community isn’t as isolating as it would be if I was still at the old place. People walk and visit, they sit outside on chairs and visit as people walk by. It’s easy to socialize and keep a distance. No block parties, or house parties but still seeing and talking to each other. Especially now with really beautiful weather. I’ve been walking every day and loving it. Yesterday for the first time ever I placed to groceries orders for delivery. One from Safeway and one from Costco. Will see how that goes.

    I LOVE the picture of your little guy. He’s a beautiful baby, enjoy they grow way to fast.

    • I’m glad you’re getting to say hi to folks from the safety of your porch and way to go on the walking.  It sounds like a nice spring  up there.  Hope the groceries all arrive safely. Thanks re: my Benjamin.  He’s a  little love bug. 

  3. Life is showing its challenging side now, isn’t it? Hang in there!
    Thanks for sharing sweet Benjamin with us, to brighten our worlds from afar!

    • Life sure is kicking some rear for sure. Hanging on my my nails. Hope all is well with you.

      Benjamin is definitely a world brightener. ❤️

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  4. Hang in there, Jillian. This is such an unsettling time for us all. I am so sad and sorry about your uncle. One of my sister has COPD, her daughter is nurse and moved back home across country to be there for her and taking up a nursing post at nearby hospital, only to have had to move out again into digs because of the risks. But all this will pass. I can’t tell you how much seeing the photo of little Benjamin cheered me up. Look at that often and remember there is so much good in life and so much more good will come. Be strong.

  5. So sorry to hear of the loss of your uncle, Jillian. I hope your dad is doing as well as can be expected following the loss of his brother. So very difficult, especially now when there is often no opportunity to say goodbye. But the photo of your adorable grandson was very welcome. Little Benjamin is such a handsome guy, and that smile… Just what we need right now to lift the spirits. You take care.

    • thanks Faye. Dad seems to be doing okay. We miss my uncle for sure. He was a good man. And thanks for saying Benji is handsome. I can already see he’s going to be quite the flirt. Jillian

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